Friday, February 28, 2025

influences

I am reminded of early years of exploring the world with Dave. Nice.

https://music.youtube.com/search?q=san+francisco+scott+mckenzie  We bought a van & gassed up & left for San Francisco with $600 & a bunch of canned goods "borrowed" from our families. I felt proud I paid toward the van with tips I earned when working at the Big Daddy restaurant at the K-Mart Plaza in the Sault.  En route to San Francisco we made stops at a commune, met hitchhikers, & worked for a month in Vancouver to earn more money. 

In Vancouver I found a job at a restaurant who had a cook I had first met when working at the restaurant at Pancake Bay trading post.  What a surprise! (He worked different places in summer & winter because he was from Spain & didn't like snow,)

Driving further down the west coast highways our van broke down & policemen helped us find places to have it repaired inexpensively.  We thought people were nice or maybe they just want us to keep on moving through! 

When we finally arrived in San Francisco we parked/camped on the park panhandle, listened to a lot of music, went to concerts & made money by selling hippy newspapers.  Eating mostly tomato sandwiches, Hershey chocolate bars & Pepsi Cola was cheap & fun.  Exploring the Haight was fun.  

We sold the hippy outfits we wore (tourists liked to take our photos & give tips) before leaving to go back home to find jobs & besides we had friends in Toronto to crash with until we found a place to live. In Toronto our van broke down on the street we ended up living for a while.  I found jobs without having a telephone but using a pay phone to check if my applications were approved. My first job in Toronto was at Manufacturer's Life (head office) as a file clerk.  I had ambitions to be a key punch operator eventually.  

Dave found day labor jobs for a while at the docks & other places.  It was then he resolved to go back to school which he did.  I typed his papers on an old typewriter which was handy when I tried to write poems. Maybe it's not poetry but it is my own thoughts. 

https://espacepourlavie.ca/en/botanical-garden.  We went to gardens in many countries. The English gardens, especially the green houses in Toronto & London were a heady experience.

Thursday, February 27, 2025

history as personal too

Ah history. I find it sort of.  Humorous how we three.  Sisters can’t seem.  2 get along.  Is dis-trust a reason but?  I could be wrong.  Takes practice trusting time is there.  Time 

left?  Or R-U still licking time-based wounds?  From from knowing some oneself as yourself?  Yes we daughters of crazy gods. We. You hoo!  Our grief & sadness hammers 

supposedly weaker kin.  Our weapons carry further with each “kill.”  We as seemingly bigger & stronger & more.  Able?  Really?  History checks us.  All together we.  Scatter every 

witch-way by what seems good reason in this season.  SO I stay.  Busy.  Growing.  Perhaps less clueless.

Tuesday, February 18, 2025

more learning

afterwards realizing during. that time I went way back. to five years old & knowing. there was no one. trustworthy except strangers but. how could I trust these strangers wanting permission to. bring him back to life when. I knew his misery O! not not. a time for detaching! think! 

think. think which? would be kinder life or death would. he curse or love? saying yes to life despite. misery. I said yes & doubted. later my friend from Iron Bridge days. gave me comfort. yes. he & we would want to live. despite. contrary signals. yes. now. these present 

moments. now this. home. together better than imagined so. so inside our gift: contentment yet... I can't imagine how. to ever. thank you old friend for solicitude meanwhile. I reconnoiter with my inner 5 yr old. learning. too. self comfort.

Tuesday, February 4, 2025

?reason_with_passion?

The Donald gives me plenty to think on his. Mixing deal making with

Love seems snarled with naivety that is. Meaning to extend myself your

Way could hurt. Wat's what's worth it to me to risk. Tsk tsk.

Changing? You tell me the world can be new again. I think I've heard this one

Before. Yet I keep hoping

You prove me wrong.  My trust in baby-faced boys talking with two tongues evaporates.  You you 

You old bugger still engage my dreams. 

Thank you.